Some of the sad side affects of medications...

I have been thinking of writing this post for just over a week but lack of time and words to express myself have been preventing it from happening.
The past several weeks Q's aggression, temper, compulsiveness and obsession has become worse then it was before. This is really hard to talk about as he is my sweet little boy and it hurts to say bad things about him but awareness needs to be made. Also I know under that all is my little Q and it makes me so sad to see my little boy suffer.
Just so you all know we have been trying to get Q into a Child Psychiatric Dr for months because of his behavior which has just intensified. Finally last week I got all the forms to fill out for Quinn (about 16 papers) and then we still need to wait months for an appointment. It hurts me to know all the children needing help for their well being and others well being and our system is failing them all. Then we wonder why why why does a child/young adult go to extreme measures like a school shooting/ murder suicide and etc. I am in no way saying their behavior is acceptable so please don't think that. It just hurts me to know all these children needed help and we aren't providing the mental help needed.  It is time to open our eyes and see that these children are crying out for help and they ( most of the time) aren't mentally well and can't control their actions to a certain extent.
We have had to hide our knives and sharp objects this month in our home after several incidents with Q. One involved a cat and him having a butcher knife to the cat's neck I managed to get the knife away and the cat was unharmed. This is extremely hard to me to talk about to the public world as it makes me very sad for my little boy and I know it also horrifies people. This is just one incident out of several. Q's sleeping patterns are also very disturbed these last few weeks. He doesn't rest well at all and the other night was up from 11pm-5am yelling,screaming and twitching. The best way to describe the way he was is like an addict on a high or coming off a high.... I could not control him or calm him down. The girls end up waking up and also being up all night because of the noise. It is so sad to see my little boy go through something so awful and I can't help him or take away what is bothering him. He also daily throws his food/drinks across the home resulting in a huge mess. The littlest thing will set him off and he will have total temper meltdown. It could be the cereal not sitting right on his spoon or the cup is in the wrong spot. This makes it very difficult to keep up with housework as I am just continually cleaning up after Q. He also becomes physical with myself with everything from biting to punching. I just Thank God he is only 40lbs and not quite 4 years old because I don't know what I would do if he was bigger and older.
Bottom line is Q needs help... mental help and we don't know how much damage the seizures have caused to his brain ( which could be causing some of this) or if the medications are causing the issues. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing he is still my little man and he does still have some sweet loving moments.
My plea is ... please don't judge people with mental health problems or seem to be acting out ( and blaming it on bad parenting/etc ( some cases it may be) ). These children and adults aren't well and we need to accept that and find help for them. We need more resources available and more public awareness. People shouldn't feel ashamed about mental health problems and other shouldn't think they just need to suck it up or in some extreme cases believing it is a sin and people should just be able to get over it.
I LOVE my little man so much and wouldn't trade him for anything :)