Ever since Quinn's first event back in March of this year it is like I am stuck in that time. I can't believe Emma is done school next week already. I wish I could move on from this event and not feel stuck in it... guess that is the only way for me to describe it. It is like I am stuck in March and everything that has happened in between now and then is a blur. Maybe that is normal for a traumatic event to burn a hole in your brain and make you feel like time just stopped but it didn't. I think I have completed my "mourning" period of this but maybe I haven't if I can't seem to move forward. Life is just so different now. I live every day minute by minute because things could change in a minute with Quinn. He still needs 24/7 attention and care so that is why the minute to minute. Plus the battle of food makes me live minute by minute ! I used to think into the future but that has all changed since Quinn's event. I can't even think a day in the future because it saddens me even though I try to hope for positive things. It is also hard because Quinn looks so "normal''... at times I forget about everything going on.
We are still waiting for genetic tests to come back on Quinn. We meet with the Dr's again on July 3rd so hopefully they can give us some info/news.
My girls came back home last week and my mom stayed to help out for almost a week. It was nice to see the girls but I forgot who makes all the noise in this house.... Brooke..Brooke... Brooke and a little bit Emma. Brooke is also being a little turkey when it comes to Quinn and food. Pointing out that she is eating something he can't ... Brooke just likes to tease and irate anybody she can. I also realized I have to cook for other people... because Kev and I were just eating whatever and whenever. It takes me so long to prepare and cook Quinn's meals that I am done with cooking and don't want to make anything for us !
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