Musings from me

Made some decisions over the weekend.. Decided I am going to have to find more medical info from my side. I didn't want to go down this road again since I don't want to have to deal with the emotional aspects of this issue. Now for you that don't know I was adopted as a baby by my parents. It was a closed adoption but I did manage to find out who she was after Emma was born ( The lady that grew me for 9 months as I don't like the word birth mother).  I wanted to keep this side of my past closed because of the issues that come with it. Lets just say she doesn't deserve the mother of the year award !! I am very thankful to my parents that I turned out the way I did and am *normal*.  As of 5 years ago she lived in Red Deer, I had contact by mail for a couple months. She couldn't give me much info on my family medical history as she is a nut case herself...  Lets just say she was in the crazy house most of her life. She has a completely messed up family and a long line of crazy family members that did time in the crazy house. As you can probably understand I didn't want any crazy in my life so I chose not to have a relationship with her. Now I am going to have to see if she is still alive and able to tell me something. I do know I have an older brother by a couple years that went into the foster system and I think was adopted at some point she told me but has no clue where he is... See what I mean about mother of the year award...  She also doesn't know who my birth father is.. or won't say... SO don't want to reopen this chapter of my life but I need more info so we can see if there is something else causing all these seizures in Quinn. Today the poor guy would just fall to his knees and then hit his head .. he did this several times.  So I will work on my letter to the lady that grew me over the next few days and then send it to her last know address and see if she manages to get it.  p.s.   if I go crazy its because of my genes ;) hahaha....