We went out for supper last night to have Quinn's last *real* meal. As we were out for supper I sat at the table noticing all the other people at the other tables just texting or whatever they were doing on their cell phones. I really annoys me that people can't even put their cell phone away for a 30 min meal out. YES this was happening at my table also... NOT going to name names though. ;) I find it so disrespectful that they can't set their phone down and have this thing called a conversation with a real person. It also annoys me when you see that person yapping on their cell phone while purchasing items in the groceries store and just pretending the cashier doesn't exist. Have I mentioned I hate cell phones?
So tomorrow I go into the hospital with Quinn to start the diet. I am sooo nervous about this ! I have had a horrible week mainly for myself and me having a pity party for myself. I am still struggling with my bitterness and it bothers me to go places and see healthy kids and their parents. Its not fair is what I feel and maybe once I get into the hospital this week I will get over that its not fair feeling for a bit. I just want to kick something and yell and scream because I miss my girls and this isn't the way life was supposed to be ! Things have also been stressful on the home front if you catch my drift. I don't know if it is all the stress and exhaustion build up.I can only hope that but at times everything just seems hopeless. Quinn had a bad weekend with seizures. He has also been starting to refuse his meds which turns into a 2 hour fight and me crying my eyes out and losing my cool. He doesn't understand he needs his meds to help control his seizures somewhat. AS we found out on Saturday since he was 3 hours late taking his meds on Friday night so Saturday afternoon was horrible for seizures. I am just so tired of everything in my life being a fight... everything in my life seems to be a fight now and I hate conflict and fighting. Oh if I could fix this all I would but I can't fix this and fix what other people and persons don't want to fix.
This week is for sure going to be a huge test and very trying. So hopefully I can make it through the week :)
I shall keep you all posted as the week goes on !
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